Benji Marshall lifts the lid on pain of never knowing his father

Benji Marshall opened up about not knowing his father this week during appearances on Celebrity Apprentice and NovaFM. Images: Channel 9/Instagram

Retired NRL great Benji Marshall has shed more light about the circumstances of his childhood after revealing that he never knew the identity of his biological father.

Marshall made the candid disclosure during an episode of Channel 9’s Famous Pupil earlier this week, with the 346-game NRL star winning the series in Tuesday’s final.

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The 37-year-old joined radio hosts Fitzy and Wippa Wednesday morning on NovaFM to further explain his life story.

Marshall’s mother Lydia gave birth to the future rugby league great when she was 15, and Marshall grew up with no idea who his father was.

He said on the Famous Pupil that he had only once asked his mother who his father was, and her answer convinced him not to ask again.

“When I asked my mother who my father was, I will never forget the look on her face,” he said.

“The look of fear, worry, it actually scared me.

“I never asked her again. I still don’t know to this day.”

Marshall is still determined to meet his father, but he admits that the curiosity about his origins lingers.

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“I’m one of those people, but if there are toxic people in my life, I can just cut them off and that’s it. I don’t really deal with you anymore.

“But I’ve wanted to know this, like, what am I? Am I, English? Am I, I don’t know. Like what half nationality wise.”

In the radio appearance, Marshall also shared how questions about his parentage have followed him throughout his career.

A documentary was made when the New Zealand-born dynamo made his debut in the NRL, but Marshall said the broadcast had unintended consequences.

“After my debut, I did this documentary thing in New Zealand and said I’d never met my father and I had 10 emails from people saying they were my father,” he said.

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Marshall said during the Famous Pupil that his father’s absence had made him feel like a part of him was missing.

About his life growing up, Marshall said that as a child he sometimes felt unsafe in his own home, clinging to walls and defending himself with a butter knife.

“This is a story I’ve never told. I’ve never talked about this publicly. I’ve never talked about it because it means so much to me,” he said.

‘I’m not that. Do you know how I know? Because I don’t even know the real me. There’s a half of me that I haven’t discovered. I don’t know my real father. I don’t know my culture. I don’t know my nationality. Who am I?”

Benjo Marshall retired from the NRL at the end of the 2021 season, ending his 19-year career.  (Photo by Chris Hyde/Getty Images)

Benjo Marshall retired from the NRL at the end of the 2021 season, ending his 19-year career. (Photo by Chris Hyde/Getty Images)

Tragically, Marshall said all he’d wanted as a kid was to feel safe and loved.

“I have this vivid memory of a seven-year-old little Maori boy holding a butter knife in his living room, scared, leaning back in the dark in the corner so no one could get behind me and grab me,” Marshall says. said.

“It’s tough. All I wanted was someone to save me. Someone to tuck me in. Someone to love me. All I wanted was a father.”

Marshall retired from the NRL at the end of last season, bringing to an end a career that spanned four clubs and was highlighted by a 2005 premiership with Wests Tigers.

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